Last weekend, in BK, I resided with Mean Sexy's sister,
Flybug Starski. We had one of those 4am, in the gristle
conversations. We discussed our paths in life, whether
we where we wanted to be and coping and planning for the future.
It was awkward, painful and necessary. She demonstrated
to me how my people can hold me down if I actually plan
ahead and ask for help.
I met Filthy Dubois in person for the first time and that
sh-t was bugged. You ever been caught off guard by how
easy it is to chill with someone?
I think we had an entire dialog using
Illmatic lyrics. Man. That sh-t had me gone.
Filthy ain't Black. So, I caught some sideways glances from cats
while I was walking with him in Harlem. He was not
phased. I was just like "ay, blood, these dudes are tripping".
But then again, chilling with him, forced me to confront my
own issues of seeing Black men with White women.
White parents with adopted Asian daughters.
My issue with Black men, who get degrees,
and then say that they are not dating Black women
anymore, because we "have too much mouth".
In fact, SJ continually got on me about how careless it is
for me to make sweeping statements about some
white folks, or about any group in particular.
We all human, no?
Clearly, I have a lot to ponder.
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Last week, I wrote on my hand,
"I hate these, I am going to meet my fate moments".
We are entitled to our truth, but that confrontation
process is not what the streets want.
I am really rethinking the racial lens through which I see things.
Like first I was Malcom, now I'm El Hajj.
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4 comments:
yo why you say the streets don't want that confrontation process. i actually think that that confrontation process is what makes the streets such a live place to be. didn't the confrontation space make el hajj's jawn so dynamic? the streets always need another el hajj...
“White parents with adopted Asian daughters.”
Hmmm umm you really just f***** up my mind with that one I never even thought about the psychology of that…or even know how to…my crew is still on some primitive “how porn, like other media really distorts your view of certain people” lol
Racial Generalizations suck…and its very very hard not to get drawn in by them… Its always a good thing to realize the by enacting them you are giving credence to those in envelop you within those stringent decrees. White people and insidious world Domination ..Black People and crime….. easy proclamations…which ignore thought… Its not easy but first step is giving individuals the ability to be individuals for me. I don’t loose sight on group actions but I don’t apply them to every one off top in that group…
El Hajj … I aint on that yet….but Malcom used to go in….to the point I felt for the avg white person that heard him speak back then..
Big Kuntry King (Ridiculous)
The New Papoose (Weak with 2 great tracks)
B.G Gangsta Grillz…..(ehhh)
And other random stuff has still gotten in my Badu way…tonights the night..for imursion….
the streets always need another el hajj...
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Ummm....We know about you and ahem- Harlem, you old professional Yack- Talker.
Yeah man. We track it....it...Detriot Red....Malcolm....El Hajj...thats that trill fam.
White people and insidious world Domination ..Black People and crime….. easy proclamations…which ignore thought… Its not easy but first step is giving individuals the ability to be individuals for me.
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Yeah man.
Campaign Humility '08 requires that we see people as Human First- White, Black, Chinese.... Second.
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